Ugh why do I care so much?

Because my husband wants a baby so badly. He keeps having dreams that I'm pregnant again (we MMC on 9/29, my 2nd and his first mc) and even though he says its okay that if we cant get pregnant he is 100% fine with it being him and I the rest of our lives. As a little girl I loved the idea of being a mum, its all I wanted since mine wasnt around, but now, it sounds selfish but I don't care if we have a baby or not and yet whenever my period comes, I don't feel relieved, but instead I feel like its a reminder that I 'cant' get pregnant.