592 days of TTC later......

When we 1st started trying we didn’t think that it would be this much of a battle since I got pregnant with my 1st after just 5 months.

We still try but over time it has gotten harder & harder to stay positive about having baby #2 (Our oldest is 9 1/2)

At this point I’m desperately trying not to get my hopes up, I haven’t even shared any of this with my husband Bc I don’t want to put him through the disappointment again if I’m not.

Right now I’m 1 day away from my expected period which already is VERY rare Bc typically Ive been starting 3 days to even a week before my expected cycle.

My breasts have been sore, ranging from a few days ago when I was almost in tears even having my shirt touching them to just being mildly sensitive today. Typically this isn’t a symptom that I experience in PMS at all.

I’ve had NO nausea whereas in my last pregnancy I was already experiencing sickness but I have also been experiencing some mild pelvic pain, bloating (which isn’t really out of the norm) & fatigue.

Also, my cervix is high & pretty soft. Idk if I’m overthinking or if this all adds up. What do y’all think?? At this point I guess that I should just go buy a test & put my mind to rest but I’m literally terrified of the possibility that it will come back negative! 😭