I’m so tired

I’m so tired of everything, every person I get attached to runs away from me, I’m tired of hearing people say I tried but I couldn’t love you, I’m tired of hearing my little sister whisper does anyone ever like her anyway and my elder sisters laugh at this... I’m tired of my dad cutting of money for me because of nothing.. I’m tired of feeling void all the time I keep searching for good everywhere but I can’t.. I can’t hold myself together anymore and I can’t even help myself.. I have no money and I can’t afford a day without this house and there’s no social help line or anything like that and the online help lines requires credit cards which I don’t have anymore.. I don’t know what to do but ask you to pray for me