im 17 and i have had some mental health issues that I have kept to myself and away from really any adult in my life. my best friend is aware of how bad it is, the anxiety feelings and recently ive been so sad and ive felt hopeless... when this all started, I started cutting but only when it got really bad and that's still what it's like now. I'm pretty in control, but I'm starting to get bad again and i know I need to get help. I don't think I can go forward to a school counsellor and give the whole story without it getting back to my mom and that's the last thing I want... and I'm scared. any suggestions?