Different me

I’ve always struggled with my weight, and the thought of getting pregnant excited and scares me at the same time! I’m scared to gain weight, but I want to be a mother, I’m scared that if I gain that weight it won’t come off again.

I struggled for four months before coming to japan, to lose 40 lbs which put me from 203lbs, to 162-3 lbs. I used to be so unhealthy, and only pretended I was happy when I was single.

But now that I found my love, I wanted to change and be healthier. Yet in japan, I’ll be overweight and fat no matter how much weight I lose. I can’t just drop another 60 lbs to be a 99 lb Asian girl. It isn’t in my blood. So my goal is to drop to 145, and stay there. Hopefully I can do that even while I’m pregnant( soon to be anyway).

I’ve come a long way from that old body to what I have now.

I went from a 36 inch waist to a 30 inch waist in four months. I was so happy. Hopefully I’ll be able to stay this way for as long as I can!