It sucks

Erica • PCOS and 1 sweet baby boy in between ttc

3 years ttc. I have PCOS so it’s a crap shoot every cycle. I could have sworn this was my month. But I was scared to test because I didn’t want the dream to end and be back in the bottomless pit of infertility. But my husband talked me into testing this morning and bfn was staring back at me. Now I have to be around a bunch of people and all I want to do is sit and cry and scream. The whole thing just sucks and I’m tired of getting my hopes up.