fear of death

i just wanted to see if anyone has a fear of death and how they get through it. ever since i was a kid i would think about growing old or a loved one dying and i freak out and start to cry. i only think about it at night when everyone is sleeping. it takes me forever to fall asleep and i have add so my brain thinks about everything before i fall asleep. during the day i dont really think about it so i never really get to talk to anyone about it. i was doing fine with calming myself down by thinking about things that makes me happy but since ive had my son its harder for me to stop it.