Proposal ruined 💔😭

So it’s my birthday weekend and tonight I went out with family for dinner and to go bowling. I was going to my boyfriends house afterwards for the night, I called him when I was on my way and he said to call him when I got there because his apartment building is set up where no one can get into the pain area unless they have a key and I lost mine so he had to open the door. I get there and call him 15 times in a row because he’s not answering I’m getting pissed because usually that means he fell asleep and didn’t have his phone on loud. I waited about 10 minutes called and texted a bunch of times, and then my mom who drove me there told me she wasn’t waiting any longer and we came back to her house and of course my phone died. Once I got my phone on the charger he texts me back and calls me and is freaking out because I guess he was in the other side of the apartment when I was calling and left his phone on the kitchen table and asked him mother to answer if I called and he had the phone in loud and she never answered. I was sitting there flipping out on him because I looked stupid having my mom bring me all the way to his house to basically be stood up. He kept begging me to take an Uber over to his place ( I don’t drive too scared lol) I kept telling him no because I was already over there and he couldn’t answer his phone and relied on someone else to answer it for him when you don’t know if they even will which she didn’t. So then he flips out on me because he had a bath drawn, with my favorite alcohol and was in the bath waiting for me to get there. When he got out he saw all my calls and texts. Then because I refused to go over there by uber he got mad at me and told me he was trying to surprise me for my birthday and that now the surprise is ruined so then he proceeds to tell me he got me a necklace and MY ring because the surprise is already ruined. And now I know he was going to propose to me so now everything is ruined and I hat myself for being so stubborn. I’m so fucking angry o can’t stop crying. Now the proposal will never be exciting because I know it’s coming, and now I don’t get to experience that shocking moment because his mom couldn’t answer the phone when she said she would and because I was too angry and stubborn. I really fucked it up. What the fuck I can’t stop crying. Wtf do I say or do?! What if not because he already tried and it failed he will never do it again 💔