Is it just me

Ever since my husband and I decided to try for baby #1 (which we had in May 2017) we can’t seem to be okay with him pulling out. We are on the fence about ttc #2. We were on board from Nov-Jan and now we aren’t. But yet it’s really sad when he has to pull out. I know I’m being dramatic. But it made us feel closer when he actually didn’t have to pull out. We got used to it when I was pregnant and now idk if we can fully go back. But, we obviously can’t have tons of babies either. I can’t be the only one.