Deciding if I want to go to therapy.. help?

Hey guys thanks for reading any advice you have for dealing with anxiety would be awesome.

I have had anxiety since I was a kid. School was hard with anxiety. (Couldn’t blow my nose in class or dare I get up and throw this trash away??). I thought that when I grew up my “being scared” would go away.

I was wrong. I was doing great even with not being able to talk to people (they thought I was snobby because of not being able to carry on a normal conversation) I hated that I couldn’t (and still can’t) do something simple.

I have had lots of trauma happen to me over the past three years (worse then my childhood)

Sexually hurrassed, sister passing away, father on drugs and rehab, bullied by family.

I don’t leave my house and I’m pretty much scared all the time and it’s super embarrassing and I just want to be a normal person in society I guess.. maybe not normal, who’s Normal anyways??

But I literally feel like I’m shaking when I’m sitting down or like my skin is always crawling(has anyone ever had that?)

I haven’t had panic attacks in half a year though.

I was recently told therapy would be a good idea but since I don’t know what that’s like I want to cry when I think about going (just scared to have to go.. idk why) does anyone have advice for how to get over that or maybe what therapy is like..

I workout, have a app called 7 cups, I try yoga when my dogs let me. Any other tips till I can see a dr or maybe just something so my skin will stop crawling..

Thanks loves. Sorry if my post is annoying. I did read back on other post first before posted.