Ranting abt my boy prob (long)

Okay so I just feel like sharing and getting this off my chest. So there’s this guy I’ve known awhile and just the past couple months we’ve kinda talked more. We have a Snapchat streak and just do some casual talking half the time it’s complaining about our teacher/school. But since we’ve been talking more I started to develop a crush on him and even thought about shooting my shot with him. I was thinking there were same mutual feelings but never had the balls to actually do something about us cuz only sometimes I was sure about it although I did (try to) flirt.

Also we’re kinda similar, but at the same time grew up a lot differently. But we did get the same personality type when we had to take a dumb personality test. And he’s a Scorpio I’m a Libra (tell me if that means something LOL)

So last week I sent him something that was funny that related to our teacher and next thing I know he’s telling me his life story and we’re texting and talking until 1 in the morning. The thing is he also told me he’s been in love with this girl who I know too for awhile even tho she doesn’t feel the same. That shit hurt to hear bc I thought for awhile he was interested in me too. So then I was trying to like give him advice for what to do with her. But tbh this girl is a butch to him bc he drives her everywhere and he buys her stuff and does take her on dates and even her family likes him but she told him she’ll never be with him bc he’s “touchy and negative” and some other stuff. I mean it might be true but like that just sucks. It’s also weird tho cuz he’s like saying that we should hang out and watch Harry Potter together cuz I’ve never seen it and go to lunch together. He even asked me to go to be his date to this award show thing his hs puts on but I said I would like to but didn’t know if I could. And he also asked if I wanted to go to lunch one day this week and I just said maybe then never got back to him about it. I’ve never been in a relationship before and never really even hung out with guy friends alone so I think I was just nervous. We haven’t really talked in a few days so now idek but like I have no clue how to feel like for some reason I still thjnk abt/like him even tho he told me he’s in love with another girl ? He also had a messed up childhood so I feel bad.

Ugh I just hate that I’ve done this to myself. Like Ik if I ever do hang out with him it’ll only wreck me more emotionally bc he’ll probably never feel the same. And for awhile I thought about asking him to prom cuz senior year why not even tho when I was thinking of this I only had a crush without really knowing him

So since most of the posts on this app people ask questions does anyone have advice on possibly how to get over him or just what to do? Cuz at this point it’s like I’m breaking my own heart lolz

If you read this cool but I’m sorry for this long thang and just wanna send love to all the wonderful ladies on this app cuz y’all deserve it!