I need advice!!

A little background information. I’m 20 married to my high school best friend (he’s 21). We started talking tonight and I genuinely got upset and have no idea what to do.

We were talking about later down the road and that I wanted 2 kids. Well, he’s a professional bowler going on tour this year and with this being his career, he doesn’t ever want kids. He would be away a lot and doesn’t want to have to do that with kids. Now, I was saying 5 to 10 years down the road. And he’s saying never. He talks all time about if I ever get pregnant, he hopes I miscarry (which I have) because of how much he doesn’t want children.

It seriously breaks my heart! I’m such a kid person! And all I want in my future is to be a mom. Any advice would be greatly appreciated!