Y’all. I’m at my wits end!!! I feel like if I let my self care about anything, I’ll start obsessing so then the other alternative is to just stop caring about anything and go completely numb. Not sure how to balance it. I am graduating college in a few weeks, so I know my attacks are more frequent right now with the heightened stress. Hopefully things will calm down once I have that freaking diploma but at the present moment my anxiety is so bad that I want to just quit right now and I know I can’t or I’ll regret it later. It’s a battle every day and I know I need help. I thought I’d have to check myself into the hospital the other day, but luckily between my husband and a kind professor, I was able to calm down. I feel like these panic attacks are taking over my life. I’ve had them since I was six years old but they’ve NEVER been this bad or frequent. I’ve heard mental illness can get worse in your mid twenties. I don’t know y’all. I’ve had it under control for years but now even my panic attack meds seem to do nothing. Honestly only my faith in God and the encouragement of my sweet husband has kept me going. Anyone here have any luck with cognitive behavioral therapy for panic attacks? I’m thinking of taking the summer to get myself help for once. I’ve never actually seen a therapist because it just wasn’t an affordable option growing up. I wonder if that’s what I need. Has it helped anyone in a similar situation? Sorry to ramble. I do that when I’m on the verge of an attack like I am now. It’s scary to talk about but I’m grateful to have a place to share with people who understand.