Why do I even try?

I’ve screwed up. I always do. Not sure why it surprises me anymore. You’re a screw up. There. Done. Now try to remember that. What did I do this time? Well, we’re trying to have a baby. Unfortunately, things aren’t going well in the bedroom department, and the best way to have a baby is to have sex. But how, when your partner has erectile dysfunction. Well it sure isn’t by putting tons of pressure on him, forcing him to have sex with you, and then crying when it doesn’t work. Now things are 200% worse. I’ve made him feel even more like crap, and I’m even more depressed about the whole situation. We’ve just begun ttc the past few months, but his ED isn’t a new problem. If it wasn’t for us ttc we’d probably go back to not having sex because we’re both too scared it won’t happen. I’m already thinking we should just quit, but I want children so badly that I can’t stop thinking about it. I’m terrified this is going to destroy our marriage. Getting him to talk about it is next to impossible. We’ve tried ED meds, but that’s not helping much. I try to spice things up, but he says he’s not into anything. I’m at a loss, and I feel hopeless. Any help out there?