I dont love life anymore and i dont know what to do.

So i hate my band director and her daughter (who now has the piccolo position and first chair since she became a freshman). She also refuses to let me do feature twirling most likely because it would be something her daughter wanted from me (even though i am the best on the line and i do serious national competitions with solo and team performances)

I know my band director is crazy manipulative and two-faced, but i have no hard proof to back it up so i just have to let my anger, depression, and humiliation fester up. I have contemplated talking to my counselor/principal about it, but what would I say?

I want to quit band, but i am a twirler, and i would look like such a quitter, not to mention i want to do band and feature twirling in college. If i quit, i lose all chances of a band scholarship also. I have two more years of school left and i literally am close to tears every single day, i hate my life, and i want to be happy again. I am stuck here. I cant stand the anxiety and humilation every single morning when her daughter sits beside me in my old seat, and acts arrogant and rubs her win in my face. Please tell me what to do! My mental health is going downhill. I am a very sweet nonconfrontational person, but the other day i literally had the idea to blackmail her.

I dont think i would go through with that ever, but i am so tired of feeling so trapped it is making me insane. What do i do