Loneliness

Hi ladies. I’m a 23 year old grad student. On the outside, i have my life figured out. I’m about to graduate. I have a job lined up. But my insides are a mess. I’ve been dating my partner for over a year now. Me and him have completely different emotional needs and ways to recharge. He recharged by reading, writing (lots of wonderful constructive stuff). I do so by speaking to people I love. I should also mention I’m an international student. Most of the people I love are on the other side of the world and often when I feel sad or lonely, the time zone fucks me over. As a result I’ve come to place a lot of value in my boyfriend fulfilling most of my emotional needs. I know it’s not fair but the situation has made it so. The thing is he doesn’t pick up on this. He’s a good guy. But he doesn’t recognize that when I feel shitty and lonely sometimes I just need him to hold me. He can be a little selfish sometimes and prioritize him wanting to read or play video games over us hanging out (is that selfish? Am I being too sensitive). I guess what I’m saying is I’m hurting. What do I do?

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