Idek...

Some sad, shameful part of me is constantly craving male attention... I think it has to do with some stuff that happened in my childhood that has shaped my view of men in ways I wish it didn't. It's like when guys notice me or talk to me, I instantly become, I guess, obsessed with their attention. There was this dude who was like double and a half my age (I'm a teen) who would say things like "you're so precious" and call me "sweetheart" and stare at me from across the room or whatever. And I knew he was a creep, but somehow it didn't matter to me... I just wanted to be noticed and admired. How do I stop that? How do I change my view of men and my view of myself? Sorry if this is stupid or twisted or something. Just trying to be honest.