I’m fucked up...

I’m fairly young, and the idea of sex or doing things sexual has always consumed my thoughts since I was very young since around 6 or 7. I started masturbation at 11 ( I wasn’t having a period then)

, and it got even worse when I started my first period. Adults like my therapist (I see one for depression) tell me that it’s perfectly normal I’m just a hormone crazed teen, and I know this is some what true because kids I know have been bumping and grinding since the 6th grade (around the time most kids in that age group start going through puberty.) Anyway I don’t just have this urge to experience just sex I feel like I want to do other things In the category too... not saying the things I want to do sexual, it’s too embarrassing! It’s horrible now because since about a few months ago (around when it was still snow outside) I started really liking the idea of being pregnant and more specifically getting pregnant as a teen. I mean my YouTube history is mostly me watching teen pregnancy videos and skits. I know that’s stupid and I would ruin my life before it even really started but I can’t help it, I even started dreaming about having twins, and having sex, so I just came here to ask for a females idea of what’s wrong with me and I prey that I can find someone who relates. <3

P.s my therapist is a guy so he’s no help😳