When can I start?

I’m 3.5 months pp, c-section. When can I start exercising?

I was 169 lbs before pregnancy, 207 lbs during pregnancy, 194 lbs now..

I’m very devastated, I hate my body I look like I’m 6 months pregnant 😓 I can’t wear anything from my closet which makes me feel ugly and I think my husband hates my body although he didn’t say anything.

I’m so tired and hopeless, I need motivation. I need to lose weight