Bad girl

I've been very bad recently... I've been dating this guy for about a month and I care about him a lot. But he admits he has anger issues and gets mad and butt hurt so easily and it's coming out more now and I start to feel him drifting.

But anyways we've been getting more distant and the other day this guy I used to have a thing with wanted to smoke me down so I let him and he gave me like 3 gs to keep. And when he was leaving I gave him a hug and he kissed me and I kissed him back. Then the next day my boyfriend and I were hanging out and then he dropped me off at my dads house where a family friend lives that I have fucked around with and I was going to get drunk and high with him my sister and dad. We both ended up alone in the hot tub and my bikini is way to small for my very big boobs and the family friend loves boobs. And we kinda started to flirt and test the waters and he touched them and when we got out he pulled me back and started to make out with me and stuff. So I've cheated 2 times now idk how this happened but I'm honestly not upset about it. It's exciting I kinda like it.