REALLY want to get married.

I used to be afraid of marriage, since everyone I’ve ever known that’s gotten married has also gotten divorced. But recently I’ve just been fantasizing about getting married, looking at wedding dresses and wedding decorations online. Me and my SO have been together a few years, we have an 8 month old together. I’ve hinted around to it, by showing him wedding dresses and saying things like “I want my dress to look like this when I get married” or talking about how I want an all black wedding ring. But I also feel like he might be too afraid to ask it, he had a fiancé before and she died from pregnancy complications, losing her and the baby. So I feel like maybe him marrying someone else will remind him of what he was supposed to have with her, since he kinda avoids the topic of marriage.