All of my past relationships have sucked. I don’t know if you can even call them relationships when I really was just there for one thing. I kept trying to find someone who truly wanted to be with me for me and not just as a warm body. Then I met you. We finally started dating and everything was great. Until you started talking to other women, nothing physical just texting. I told you I didn’t like this and that it had to stop and it did. We moved on rebuilt trust and built a family. We are now married with a child and you start doing this again. Not with just anyone though, with one of my best friends. Sending her good morning beautiful texts, calling her baby, and my personal favorite when you called her your sexy little stripper. Its been a couple of weeks since I found these messages and I still don’t know what to do. I want to try to move past it. There was nothing physical but I feel so betrayed and stupid for trusting you. On top of that we all work together so once she gets back from her vacation I have to face her, my friend, who didn’t tell you to stop or tell me about what was going on.

I keep going over my options and thinking about divorce but we have a child and I don’t want him to think I just gave up. But I don’t know where to start with you anymore. There’s no trust. I feel so insecure in myself and our relationship that it hurts. I feel like my old self again like I’m not good for anything but being a warm body, not good enough to love. I don’t know where to go from here.

Sincerely,

Lost