I am finally happy with the love of my life and we are both ready to have my first baby. only problem is his past caught up with him and he is now in prison. so many girls at work are pregnant and his sister is also and now a friend's daughter is showing signs of pregnancy. she just turned 18, I am happy for the woman who are pregnant in my life but my man's trial is Tuesday and we will find out how long he has. I am praying not long but I could be a few years and I'm worried of it is I will run out of time. my heart hurts with this hanging over me. why do I have to have such strong baby fever and may not even get to have babies. but everyone around me does?! how can I hide my hurt to those close to me is not their fault and I'm not mad at them but it hurts me.