Couples

So I’ve asked out a bunch of people because I’m extremely lonely and like a lot of people but they have all said yes but only because they either feel bad or just want to make their ex mad and I’m beginning to think that it’s all my fault but then my boyfriend now said he really loves me and I don’t know if I should trust him because once he was mad at me and at lunch he put his hands around my throat and shoved me across a table but I’m perfectly fine and I don’t want him to leave me so I have no idea what I should do