Miscarriage & Cheating

Well ladies this is something I didn’t think I’d ever have to write.

Two weeks ago I had a miscarriage at 8 weeks. Me and my boyfriend were devastated, we have a 8 years old daughter and a 2 year old son and were excited to add another little one to the family. Well it didn’t happen that way.

Wednesday evening I went to my friends house even after my boyfriend begged me not to go. But as I told him he goes out during the week all the time and I never do, not because I can’t but because I just rather stay home with the kids after work and relax. When I got home my daughter told me Matt had been crying and holding our family picture (weird right). But when I asked him about it he said he just had a really bad dream and had only shed a tear or two.

Thursday morning I wake up to a text message from a friend of mine telling me she heard a rumour at the hospital that my boyfriend had cheated on me. (Reason he was crying the night before is he thought my friend already knew and was going to tell me that night). We live in a small town of 3500 people if that. So everyone knows everyone pretty much. I later on my lunch break receive a text from another friend saying she wanted to get together to talk about something. I informed her I think I know what she was going to tell me. I then go on Facebook and message the girl that he apparently cheated on me with and didn’t receive a response only one from her mother (girl was in rehab for coke. She also has a husband and 2 kids) apologizing for her daughters behaviour and saying she is here for me and my family. I then go to message the husband and realize Matt had blocked him on my Facebook so he couldn’t send me any messages.

By this time it is after work and I get my MIL to watch the kids so I can meet up with the cheaters husband. Matt still had not messaged me or anything. Well apparently they hooked up one night right before I found out I was pregnant and it goes from there, I’m not going to get into the gory details.

So within two weeks I lost my baby and my SO and my world has been turned upside down. I am now a single mother of 2 and could possibly be pregnant as we started trying again as soon as I finished miscarrying.

I haven’t felt very many emotions yet except for a lot of anger and some sadness but mainly just numb.

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