Boyfriend not the same as before

I was very happy with my boyfriend the first couple months, and a lot of people will say it’s the honeymoon faze ending and not to stress, but it’s really hurting my heart the more I’m finding.

I’ve never been one to deny someone porn, especially since we all have urges, so when I was going through my boyfriends phone taking stupid pictures and leaving sweet notes I was surprised to find sneaked pictures of some of my friends butts, nudes of his old girlfriends, and the names of a cam girl that went to our school!

I’ve never been prude and we don’t live together so I can’t take care of him every night, but the nights I am with him I do my best, even when I’m not feeling up to it. I give up my own comfort to give him something cause I want to take care of him, that’s my choice I know, but it’s gotten to the point where he can’t see me without wanting sex.

One night I was staying over, I woke up to him telling me he had his ex girlfriend on the phone at two in the morning while I was sleeping next to him. He kept justifying it with, ‘Well ____ was on the phone too.’ I don’t even care if he’s still friends with her, but having the common curtesy to not answer her calls at two would have been nice.

His moms been in the hospital almost our whole relationship (five months) and his dad is a drug addict who spends all their money on shit he doesn’t need leaving them without gas. But- He has money saved in social security but doesn’t ever offer gas money anymore and expects me to come get him whenever we want to meet up.

Also, his best friend is his ex girlfriend that he was obsessed with. He’d give her everything, and still does whenever she asks. He paid for her lunch ever day since middle school up till we graduated. He still treats her like a princess.

I don’t know what to do. I’ve brought this all up with him but he just apologizes and says he’ll try to get better. I don’t know what to do cause I love him but this isn’t healthy. We had a miscarriage a month ago and all I can think is what if I had carried that baby to full term? This is the father they would have had.