I don’t know if it is normal or if I’m just crazy. I just can get over how much I hate myself for having a wedding I never really wanted. I let myself get pushed into it, like the thought of a small family only wedding was ideal to me, but even then I would have rather eloped and gone on an amazing honeymoon. Which we haven’t even gone on a honeymoon because we can’t afford it now thanks to the wedding!! I don’t regret marrying my husband but I just felt like the wedding was his thing; however, I had to pay for it. So now I just want to cry every time I think of the money I spent on something that I didn’t even want, surrounded by a lot of people I didn’t even like. I try to calm myself down and say it can’t be undone so don’t worry about it but stuff like that just bugs me forever.