Confuzzled.

Feel like retiring my current bf. Three years but a situation occurred (thorough discussion) ... all bad & on his shoulders .... He fucked up. I feel disconnected bored misunderstood mistreated but disregard the history on a pain level he feels me and no one else does. We can say a joke from 5 months ago still funny. He knows me so well but he’s blind to my worth & capabilities.

Saw my ex three times this week too. No sexual stuff just convo. I’m not attracted to him but I trust him ... it’s weird I don’t want him tho really want to be his actual friend but he loves me.. 🤷🏾‍♀️