That feeling..

When you and your boyfriend of 5 years who arnt ready yet to be parents... have sex with eachother for the first time after 5 years ... you take a pregnancy test and see it's negative and feel ... disappointed and a little depressed. And the feeling is mutual with your significant other... we arnt financially stable yet and I have to go to college after I graduate this year from highschool.... it's just that feeling of wanting to have a baby made from your love... it's a huge urge I wish I could make it happen.. but we have to wait so we are at least prepared with a home and everything... .ugh.. I just feel a bit depressed after seeing it's negative... And I needed to vent...