How do I heal?

I feel so emotionally and physically closed off from my boyfriend. I found porn on his phone earlier this week. He knows I’m always down for sex, my sex drive has always been higher than his. So why does he feel the need to watch porn when I’m always ready?

I had him delete the strip chat that I found and I had him tell me that he wouldn’t do it anymore...how do I open myself up to him again? I know he’s honest about not doing it again, at least I feel that he is. I just want to know how I can not be as withdrawn from him if any of you have any tips or advice, if really like to know 🙏 because whenever he touches my boobs or my butt or anywhere even near there I jerk away and I just can’t have him touch me. I feel like I can’t look on social media anymore because I see so many models and so many mostly naked women and I just get sick.

So if anyone has any advice, that would be wonderful 🙏