Vaginal deliveries help me out here

During labor some nurses came in and checked me for progress with dilation. They said that I had feces that needed to be removed. They asked my permission and I said sure. (Hoping it would relieve some of the pressure I was feeling on my tailbone. It helped a little. But she went into my vag with her hand and pushed super hard inside to push the feces out..:I’m 5 weeks postpartum and I’ve noticed that anytime I need to poop I feel that awful pain all over again and I’m bent over in pain and can barely make it to the bathroom bc of me being bent over unable to move. Has anyone else experienced this? If so does it ever go away??