Picture is of a blood clot so if you’re easily sick, don’t look.. I didn’t even know.

Amber

I had a miscarriage yesterday afternoon and I didn’t even know I was pregnant..... I passed this huge clot around 1:30 and bled through a Super plus Tampon within 15 minutes. I went to the Er and when I showed the dr she told me the clot looked like I had had a miscarriage but she wanted to run a few tests. When the tests came back they labeled it a menstrual abnormality because apparently my HCG levels were too low to detect a pregnancy. So I asked her what that meant and she didn’t want to answer me, but finally she told me that I was about 12 weeks to 12 and a half weeks along and the baby probably died a week or so prior to the clot.. This is the 3rd baby I’ve lost, and I don’t know how to feel. I went completely numb until around 3:30 this morning. Asides from the physical pain I didn’t feel anything.. I’m so lost, and the one thing I keep asking myself is how, after 5 pregnancies in total, how did I not know I was pregnant? My heart aches knowing I will never be able to hold my baby. 💔 I don’t know why I posted this here, I guess I just needed a safe space to get this off my chest and out of my head