:/ i dont know

When you want something but then you dont. When you love someone but know they are no good for you. It tears me to pieces because yes im happy here but i feel like every thing is my fault still. I have some amazing people and i know i can start raising money for things i need to get life back on track but i feel guilty because im going to have and someone else wont have. Im lost on what to feel. My head is one place, My heart is in another and my gut is telling me something else. I dont know anymore if i deserve to be happy