Dear ex

I'm sorry that what we have couldn't last. I remember when we first met, I was in 7th grade and you was in 6th. I knew you had a crush on me, but I couldn't give you the time and day to be with you because you were so immature. I liked having you as a friend. I didn't realize you left to go to another school until your cousin came and told me you left. I was upset for a little while, but I got over it. When you came back I was in 8th and you were in 7th. I ran up to you to give you a hug and you kissed my neck. Fast forward we started dating and in the beginning it was fun. Until we had the incident with me laying my head on your cousin's shoulder and I wasn't trying to be disrespectful. We were kids and I never truly had a boyfriend. I remember you writing me on Facebook late at night because your parents forbid us from seeing each other. I told your dad I wasn't trying to talk to your cousin. They soon accepted my apology and we dated again. I'm sorry about the things that took place during our relationship. The fact I didn't even lose my virginity to you it was to another. I did tell him no, but you turned a blind eye to me and dismissed me. You let people tell you things about me. I'm was supposed to be your girlfriend, but you took everyone else words over mine. People spread rumors about me have AIDS and you believed it. You even went out your way to Kiss my former friend while you confronted me in the library. Cursing me out with my friend on your shoulder laughing at me. Yet, I still loved you. We been together on and off for 6 years. You put in my head that no one will love me like you do, so I was always afraid to put myself out there. You mom and dad hated me because I was black and I didn't have silky hair. Your parents went as far as to threaten to kill me if they seen me and yet I wanted to spend my of my life with you. I did regret leaving you for another guy, but I got tired of the petty arguments and you accusing me of cheating. I got what I deserved because the guy cheated on me. I did contact you that night and told you I was sorry. You tried to act so cold to me, but we knew you were happy to hear my voice. I will admit I did sext another guy because you wasn't giving me any attention and you chose to be on your phone and video games more than me. I regret it tremendously. I can only imagine how it felt when he sent you those text and pictures of me. I take full responsibility and as time flew by after we graduated you changed into someone I never thought I would hate so deeply. You ignored me through out college. I got yelled at by my Mom for not being at her job on time because I would go and see you. My friends called me a dumbass for being so gullible around you. I will never forget the day when it came to an end. You promised me you would stop ignoring me and you would love me and show me love and you didn't hold your promise. Long nights I stay awake, wondering if you ever was going to call me and you didn't. You told me YouTube was more important than me. And I was so depressed I tried to end it all because you told me no one will love me like YOU DO and I believed it. You abused me verbally the whole relationship. You knew how to make me cry, you knew how to make me happy and you used it for yourself. When you heard me cry you won't even comfort me. You told me that you were going to leave me or walk out on me for FUCKING CRYIN. When YOU, YOU, YOU! YOU caused the tears! I stopped carry the tears dried and I asked you if you want to be with me or not. Then, the boy I did know from the beginning came out of you, the boy I fell in love with. You started crying and told me to move on. Right now, I don't regret it. I found a guy that loves me and cares for me and gives me all the attention I can ask for. He makes me feel beautiful. I'm glad you finally let me go. I'm happy I can possibly be a mom soon. I will love my baby and teach them what it means to loved. I hope your having a nice life with whoever you choose. I just hope you treat hee better than me.