Closer to AF time

Well here we are five months into ttc. I am 2 days from AF (stay away witch). I’m feeling crappy and extremely gassy. Had bouts of both constipation, diarrhea, off and on hot flashes. Nausea (three days around 6-8 dpo) attributing that to a bug?? Really fatigued but not sleeping well at night. Hot and miss full feeling (gas maybe?). My bb were pretty sore for four days then nothing. Here I am having another hot flash bah. I tested around 9 dpo and bfn. I don’t think I am in the race this month. We will see if the old witch shows up. Tired of seeing those heart breaking bfn!!!! My chart has been crazy but I’m just too scared to test and see that negative again. It makes me feel so broken what do you all think??