Feeling out of place.

I just need to rant a little bit I guess.

I’m a first time mom and I had my daughter about a week ago and I have to say I love spending every minute with her. She’s the light of my life she always has been since I found out I was pregnant with her.

Lately I’ve been feeling a little out of place. Like I don’t belong anywhere but i have no where to go. My family keeps saying that I’m always welcome with them and they all try their hardest to make me feel welcomed but I don’t feel like I should be here.

I feel like I need to hurry up and find my own place and that pressure is kind of stressing me out and no one had really said I need to find my own place but it feels like I have to. Like it’s expected of me and I’m just not doing it. And it’s taking everything in me to not break down everyday which makes me feel worse and I don’t really have anyone I feel like I can talk to about how I feel.