I want to be married

I would love to be married , a good year ago I had a different outlook on relationships and marriage and I didn't think that I wanted to be married or that I deserve to be married. A year later looking at it now I'm 24 years old and I want nothing more than to have someone completely in love with me that I am in love with as well I just want a relationship where the person values me as a whole and I value them as a whole. Anytime I get into a relationship or start to date a guy it never works out. Sex is always an issue and it's not that I don't tell them from the start then I'm a virgin and I want to be married before I have sex. They act as if it's no problem I can wait it's fine it's okay that's no issue I like you for you but then months down the line sex becomes an issue or lack of. I know that this day in age it is very rare or hard to find a man who is a virgin or whom is willing to wait on a virgin, but I just simply don't feel like I should put my plans or beliefs for myself to the side for someone else , does that make me selfish? I don't think so. All I want is to have a marriage like my parents they've been together since they were 16 and married since they were 20. I've always been the goody two shoes, the girl with morals and just an all-around sweetheart and it's simply just isn't enough because I end up left in the Wind, cheated on or simply just unwanted. Now in the past I would believe that it was my fault but currently I know it's not me it's just got to be the people that I'm choosing because there is nothing wrong with me.

I'm not an overly religious person yes I'm Christian and yes I believe in God but I do not go to church although my decision to wait is motivated from Gods word but also because my parents had drilled it in me as a child that now I feel like I've come this far why give up now. At first I was waiting because my parents wanted me too but now I'm waiting because I want to.

When I'm in a relationship I'm a very emotionally involved person so sex without a marriage and a possible breakup would just kill me. Lol by saying that I am not saying that having sex before marriage will result into a break up that is not what I'm saying however I do believe that I didn't lose much if I continue or remain a virgin and if we happen to break up it is what it is. Everyone has their own opinion or outlook on what virginity is or what it means to them, some people don't care some people do and I'm not here to judge anyone else based on their beliefs.