Talking is hard

So I'm going to start seeing my counselor again because things are not OK at the moment and I have a 2 month old and i really don't want to bring him with me so i can focus and actually talk about my problems, Idk who i can ask to watch him because everyone works. My goal is to actually make an appointment tomorrow but my anxiety is already through the roof and I don't want to do it but I know I need to or things are going to get bad again and i can't let that happen. Ugh anxiety and depression suck 😧😩