Life just isn’t fair right now. 😭

Yesterday sucked.

I went to my GP to get checked for painful pressure I was having in my vagina (30 weeks pregnant with #2). In a mad panic, she sent me an hour away to be assessed by my birth team because my blood pressure was high, baby’s heart rate was low, and baby’s placenta was outside of my vagina.

After a dreadfully slow one hour to the hospital, I was told that the doctor was full of it - my blood pressure was normal; baby’s heart rate was 140bpm; and the “placenta” was a small prolapse that should go back to normal after delivery. 😒

So, all was fine there.

Then last night, I got home, and showered my son. I came out into the kitchen to find a suitcase on the table. I jokingly said to my fiancé, “Going on vacation, are you?” And he turned around and told me that he was actually leaving me, because he doesn’t love me anymore, and hasn’t for a while. I thought he was joking. But he wasn’t. All the times that he had joked about leaving were his way of preparing me for this day. And my heart shattered into 1000s of pieces.

I’m 30 weeks pregnant, and I’ve been left with a 1 year old, and a rental that I can’t afford.

Life can be really unfair. 😭