Am i wrong for kot wanting sex with him?

My husband had been verbally abusing me, just running from responsibilities and family life. Every weekend he goes out literally by just walking out without telling me to saying anything and comes home 3/4am. While i look after house and child who is two years old. Since this marriage i hv been lonely. He has done so much that i hv began to lose feelings. Tonight he came home from outside 3:30am and tried to force sex with me. I avoided it and said im not well let me sleep but he was grabbing my hands so tight and just wudnt listen so I started crying and instead of talking to me or consoling me, he became aggressive and said im always in bad mood and i do drama etc etc 😢. Am i wrong for not wanting to hv sex with him? He threatened me last time that he will break my face. Financially he has always deprived me and also the child. So much he has done that i am now giving up n losing feelings. Pls tell me if i am wrong