wanting to give up... Opinions

So I have a bf that lives in a different state. I'm 18 but where I'm from I'm technically not an adult till 19. My parents don't know Abt my bf and I. My parents are so rude Abt relationships and love and believe internet relationships are always fake & full of pervs but I love this man so much and refuse to leave him no matter what (we have almost been dating for a year). So my mother took my phone which is fine bc my parents pay for it... And my bf and I send pics and vids back and forth bc... What else are we suppose to do? He's 5 states away and can't visit and I can't leave till the end of hs. So she found a video I sent (that I thought I deleted)... Now I have no privacy, I can't shower with the door closed or sleep with the door closed or use any electronic without someone watching my every move and obviously no phone. They think I was sending it to random ppl and they still haven't figured out Abt my bf but idk if I should tell them I was sending it to someone ik and trust. I'm not allowed to be alone either. They track my miles and are making me quit my job. I find a problem with quitting my job bc I have to pay for all of college (which I know lots of ppl do) but they don't like where I want to go so they are making me apply where they want me to go and want me to go where they want and I feel like setting me up for failure like I can't pay for where I want to go if I don't have a job to pay for it.

I'm loosing it I'm not an animal I need privacy I get that I misused their trust and I do feel bad Abt it. But now they are saying I should talk to my Bishop and go to a therapist or addiction recovery. Also one of my friends offered for me to stay with her family for the rest of hs. And I can pay rent and get a job. What do you guys think I should do? Should I tell them Abt my bf? Should I move out?

Bf said if necessary he'll buy me a ticket of some type to come to him but I told him not till hs is over.

This all may seem like nothing but there is so much other things that go into it that makes simply exsisting in my parents house emotionally degrading. I'm the bad example in every situation for my younger siblings and am blamed for all their bad traits.

Sorry this post is a mess, and I'm not looking for nasty comments I need help. So please keep your negative comments to yourself. I'm just confused and feel completely alone.

P.s. I have a secret phone I talk to bf on when I have wifi

P.p.s. if y'all have questions on my rant just ask please lol