Back to being just friends 😖

So, I guess he's my ex now, so I should say ex, and I are back to friends. We just had a conversation about this this morning and it made me a little bit sad. We had a huge lack of communication that caused a TERRIBLE fight, and honestly, just an overall rough week. It was SUCH a rollercoaster, and now we're basically back to when we were best friends before our relationship.

This morning, he told me that he was so happy to know that we can remain friends and not hate each other after what just happened, and that even if we don't get back together, he's so happy that I'm still in his life. The thing is, I know we need to take a step back right now and sort out all that's happening, but there's no way I can happily just remain friends with him. I love him too damn much, and when I think about where I want to be 5 years, 10 years, 50 years from now, he's there by my side. Prior to this, I know it was the same for him. I'm hoping that it still is. I guess, after that conversation where the thought of us only remaining friends entered my head, I've been feeling a little off. But, I'm sure he was just letting me know how happy he is.

When this blows over, this time I'm going to ask him to be my boyfriend again, and I'll try to top his romance factor when I do too. (He asked me on the roof of a parking garage at sunset while we were looking over the city. Omg it was gorgeous.) Anyway. I just feel like I needed to let that out because it's been on my mind all day.