Sex phobia

I’m 30 and I have always been a good girl, or tried my best. I was raped and then I moved on and married someone but got divorced because he was physically and verbally abused. But I’ve never enjoyed Sex, I’m always afraid of diseases or getting pregnant, after years of being divorced I had sex with 2 different men, one time each and today I read an article about hiv ADM I panicked. I must add that I suffered form anxiety. My psychologist has helped, saying that I’m just anxious. I’ve done many hiv tests where I have no hiv results.

I’m worried I will never be happy and enjoy Sex