Hurt and confused
So I’ve been really struggling now more than ever with my husband’s lack of care and concern for me because of the pregnancy. Before I could get over it because it was just me but now that I’m carrying our baby girl and I’m 24 weeks the finish line is in sight and I’m scared he won’t be there for our child. He is always in his own world never thinking of others or me. If he could he would sit on the couch and play games all day, eat, then sleep. He only helps me if I adamantly ask for his help. Otherwise everything is on me. He never wants to get to know me. Everything I say he completely ignores, not just things I say here and there. Everything I say he ignores or forgets in 5 seconds. If it’s something like please pick up my medicine at Walgreens on the way home he forgets I ever asked. If it’s please start helping me so I don’t have to carry heavy things and bend over so much, he forgets. No my husband doesn’t ever do anything to hurt me necessarily. He does nothing at all. Nothing good. He would pretend I didn’t exist if I let him. He would let our dogs die of thirst if I didn’t take care of it. He would eat all the food we have and leave me none if I didn’t ask him to leave me any. The list goes on. I don’t know how to be okay with living like a ghost in my own home. I don’t know how so many women are okay with this. I don’t know what to do anymore.