Depressive episode

I just feel the depression coming in and it doesn’t help that I’m already in a messed up place in life. The worst part is I hate letting people know what I’m going through but I feel so hopeless right now and wish someone would just reach out and tell me it’s gonna be okay. Ya know it’s like you leave those little hints to people cause you don’t want to lay it out on the table but they don’t pick up on them. It just makes me want to isolate myself more. I don’t know what to do right now