Just be born 😩 (Rant)

My due date is 2/14 and here I am on 2/12 with a day and a handful of hours, just watching as time ticks by, praying this baby will decide it’s his time to come now.

I’ve loved being pregnant, I’ve loved it from the moment I got my little pink positive and I’ve loved every second of watching my stomach extend past my toes and knowing that it was only happening because my baby was growing big and healthy.

I never imagined going over my due date, I mean I don’t want to have him on my due date either because there’s already a Valentine’s Day baby in my baby and I hate the idea of children sharing birthdays with holidays. It’s never seemed fair to me. But now I’m being faced with having him by 2/14 or My doctors scheduled me to be induced.

I’ve loved being pregnant- BUT I’m tired of it. I want to have this baby as natural as possible and after going through all suggested ways to induce labor safely at home and experiencing absolutely nothing, it feels like being induced is the only way I’ll be able to have this baby. It makes me feel kind of shitty. Like I can’t even do this right.

I know DH tries to understand how I’m feeling but he’s more so “as long as the baby is healthy” and there’s nothing wrong with that. I mean, I’ll do anything to keep the baby healthy and if being induced or an unplanned c section becomes what needs to happen to ensure the health of the baby I’ll do it. I just wish I didn’t have too.

I’ve loved being pregnant but I’m tired of it. I want to hold my baby and see him finally, I want to see the look on DH’s face when he sees his son finally, I want to bring my baby home.