Baby fever.

(LONG, BUT PLEASE READ!)

Hey y'all. 😊

So, for a few months now, I have had extreme baby fever. It makes me miserable and I'm at the point of questioning my mental health. I always cry about it, and since I'm training to become a Birth Doula, I can't read or watch videos about birth without bawling my eyes out. The hurt, pain, and disappointment I'm feeling is excruciating at times. Do any of you sweet ladies have any advice?

I have been married for a year now, and I've been with my husband for almost 6 years. Having children has always been a dream of mine. Kissing their little feet, waking up at 3 a.m. because they need you to hold them, and hearing their laugh...the thought makes me feel so full.

My husband said he wanted children after we got married and through the discussion, I told him I didn't want to wait a long time. Well, he came home from work and he told me he wanted to wait at least another 3 years so he can go back to college to get his Master's Degree, and didn't ask me how I felt or what I wanted to do. I respect my husband, but he completely ignored my feelings, and had no courtesy to ask me what I was thinking.

Therefore, I'm sacrificing my dream of having a baby for his education. I have sacrificed so much for my husband and our marriage because I'm so in love with him but...the least he could do is respect me enough to ask my opinion. 😥

Now I feel so lost, broken, and invisible.

As a woman, I want to bear a child, and I feel like that has been taken away. I don't want to force him to have children by any means, but he knew how much I want this...

So, at this point, is there anyone who can give me advice on how to rid my baby fever?

Thank you so much for reading. ❤