Mental abuse

Anyone experience mental and emotional abuse. I think I am but I’m in so deep I’m starting to think maybe there is something wrong with me or maybe this is just how relationships are.

My husband cheated but blames me for his reasons for cheating. He literally rewrote our whole life together, him being so love to me and me just being a straight bitch. I really thought we had a very nice relationship with normal ups and downs, I didn’t know it was hell for him..

Sometimes I can see through his excuses and many times I feel maybe I was a horrible wife and deserve everything he has done to me. He has said many times “good luck finding a good man who will want you for your heart not just sex” but this is after him treating me like worse than an animal.. but I am really starting to believe him, maybe I really am messed up. But the smart side of me knows I’m not crazy..I was a good wife to him, I’ve always helped him when he was down, always supported him, I loved him..

But now I feel maybe I lost a good man.. I don’t feel worthy, I feel I failed as a wife and woman, I start to believe him that maybe he really was amazing and I should have done more.. and I won’t find a good man like him.. but I know he isn’t being a good man right now..

Does this sound like mental or emotional abuse ?

Edit: even thou he cheated, yesterday he mentioned he gave me another chance to fix our relationship ... he said the other woman isn’t the problem (he still communicates with her), he said I need to separate the two and fix myself

I asked him if he was still talking inappropriate to her, he responded “have you fixed yourself ?”

I do love him, he gets a little inch jealous when I mentioned working with another man, in a weird way it made me feel wanted when he gets jealous.. it makes me feel he loves me or he wouldn’t be jealous..