Just don’t know what to do.

My depression has gotten so bad recently. I was diagnosed with PTSD and generalized anxiety when I was 5. When I was a preteen I was then diagnosed with depression. I can’t afford to go to a therapist and get the medication I need. I’ve been crying off and on every day for a few weeks now. I hate when it gets this bad because there’s nothing that helps it. I just feel like I’m laying in a hole and things are just piling up on top of me. I get irritated and angry so easily. I either feel really anxious and unsettled, really upset and worthless, or I feel numb. It’s so hard to cope with and being 36 weeks pregnant I’m really scared that it’s going to get worse after I have the baby and I’m going to develop PPD. I feel like I bring others down around me but I’m really trying to pick myself up and pull myself together but it’s like I can’t no matter how much I try and want to. Please just pray for me. 😥