Ppd isnt real

So Im 6 weeks pp and at my appointment I mentioned to my doctor that I think I may have ppd. I haven't really been bonding with my baby. I cry all freaking day. I do the bare minimum to get by which is basically laying in bed all day and breastfeeding and changing the baby on the bed and putting her back to sleep. I can't eat, like physically can't even bring myself to do it. Its terrible and idk why I feel like this. I feel like I don't deserve my beautiful little baby. Well she referred me to this mental health clinic that my insurance covers. When I got there they did a quick evaluation and asked why I was referred. I said that I was having a few symptoms of ppd and I'd like to get help and they said that PPD wasn't actually a mental illness and they couldn't treat me. After the evaluation they said I'm bipolar and put me on abilify. They also said I can no longer breastfeed with the medication but my doctor reassured me they would find something that I could still breastfeed on. Sorry this post was so long I just feel hopeless at this point.